Why did you leave the party? I had a wonderful time meeting all the new people, and there are some you're absolutely going to adore, and one of them even looks just li --
Yup.. [Pops the p, like that face of the Doctor often did She'd laugh more if she wasn't drinking, and kind of overly emotional.]
And the older Doctor ran away with the spoon. No idea what that means for him and me. His newest one is from after he gave me to Meta, but he asked me to get a mortgage with him. It's what I said in Hell: Krop Tor, when he lost his TARDIS. He'd have to get a mortgage, and I said we could share.
Okay, I feel like I need a diagram. When you say "newest one", do you mean the newest one to arrive here, or do you mean the newest face he has, which would techically be the oldest Doctor?
You know what? Shorter version of that question. When you say "newest one" do you mean our mutual roommate? Is he the one that made the mortgage reference? Or the one who just arrived?
Either way, Rose, I'm pretty sure you really do like the pain. I'm kind of an expert on that sort of thing.
Arrive here. Not the oldest, who is our roommate, at least for now.
The cockatoo hair one asked me to get a mortgage with him. He wants me to move in with him. A second chance. Or... fiftieth chance. Whatever, I don't keep count. He looks a little like Crowley, but not ginger, and more like a sad puppy right now.
I searched so long for him. So many deaths and darkness and my private hell, and I thought all I wanted was to find him and then just... [Dusts her hands.] That would solve everything. Fight the darkness, save the multiverse, stay with him happily ever after.
But that's not what happened. And what does it say if I do? That I'm still clinging to that past that isn't what happened? It sends the wrong message to his oldest. But at the same time... he ran away. Without me. Left me to deal with himself. And I don't know... [Rubs her eyebrows with an arm.] I'm scared of losing sight of myself. My goals, my desires, my everything, just for him. I'm scared of giving up on his oldest, and letting him push me away, because how many times does he have to push me away until I get the hint?? I mean, I gotta give up at some point, yeah? Even masochism has its limits.
Just because you sleep in another room doesn't mean you're giving up on him, y'know. That's more basic from you than I expected. For a guy with so many different faces, the Doctor should be able to deal with you wanting to spend time with the one you really missed for a while. And if you ever want to come back, the one that just showed up should be able to deal with that, too. If they don't, I can give them both my best Disapproving Stern Face and tell them off.
I don't know if I'd actually be any good at it? But I'd sure try,
Ehhhhh.... It's not that it's his face I missed. It's also... like... it feels so... tch... like he's pushing me away again. Pushing me towards that face to take care of him, and whatever, like I said, maybe I just should? But I don't want to forget myself. My independence.
What's stopping you from just doing what you want then? Who cares if it's what he wants you to do too? That's a bonus! It means he won't be upset at you for it and you don't have to deal with all that awful passive-aggressive stuff people do when they're angry with each other, like post-it notes on the refridgerator or - or - oh, what's the other thing. Leaving bowls of dry cereal in there to show that you're out of milk, that's another one.
[Makes a face.] Even his life's too short for nonsense like that, yeah?
I guess so. But then I'd be leaving you too. And I love the mural. And -- [HUFF.] I don't have it in me to watch him be sad just to stick to something... [Shrug!!]
On the contrary. I feel like I should try it at least once, just to see what it's like. [but this is Michael, wanna-be-human, who fails at just about everything except getting together with Eleanor and making bow ties work as a fashion statement]
You're not leaving me, Rose, no matter what you do. I'll still be your friend. It's not like you're telling me to fork off and diving into the sun. And I'm pretty sure that Doctor Current Roommate feels the same way.
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Date: 2019-10-15 10:10 pm (UTC)[WORRIED FACE]
Why did you leave the party? I had a wonderful time meeting all the new people, and there are some you're absolutely going to adore, and one of them even looks just li --
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Date: 2019-10-15 10:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-15 10:18 pm (UTC)And the older Doctor ran away with the spoon. No idea what that means for him and me. His newest one is from after he gave me to Meta, but he asked me to get a mortgage with him. It's what I said in Hell: Krop Tor, when he lost his TARDIS. He'd have to get a mortgage, and I said we could share.
Has me kind of wondering if I like the pain.
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Date: 2020-01-27 09:12 pm (UTC)You know what? Shorter version of that question. When you say "newest one" do you mean our mutual roommate? Is he the one that made the mortgage reference? Or the one who just arrived?
Either way, Rose, I'm pretty sure you really do like the pain. I'm kind of an expert on that sort of thing.
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Date: 2020-01-27 09:25 pm (UTC)The cockatoo hair one asked me to get a mortgage with him. He wants me to move in with him. A second chance. Or... fiftieth chance. Whatever, I don't keep count. He looks a little like Crowley, but not ginger, and more like a sad puppy right now.
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Date: 2020-01-27 10:25 pm (UTC)... [he knew Rose well enough that he didn't need to ask, but he did anyway]
So you're going to?
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Date: 2020-01-27 10:42 pm (UTC)I searched so long for him. So many deaths and darkness and my private hell, and I thought all I wanted was to find him and then just... [Dusts her hands.] That would solve everything. Fight the darkness, save the multiverse, stay with him happily ever after.
But that's not what happened. And what does it say if I do? That I'm still clinging to that past that isn't what happened? It sends the wrong message to his oldest. But at the same time... he ran away. Without me. Left me to deal with himself. And I don't know... [Rubs her eyebrows with an arm.] I'm scared of losing sight of myself. My goals, my desires, my everything, just for him. I'm scared of giving up on his oldest, and letting him push me away, because how many times does he have to push me away until I get the hint?? I mean, I gotta give up at some point, yeah? Even masochism has its limits.
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Date: 2020-01-27 11:12 pm (UTC)I don't know if I'd actually be any good at it? But I'd sure try,
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Date: 2020-01-27 11:42 pm (UTC)[Thinks on it.]
Ehhhhh.... It's not that it's his face I missed. It's also... like... it feels so... tch... like he's pushing me away again. Pushing me towards that face to take care of him, and whatever, like I said, maybe I just should? But I don't want to forget myself. My independence.
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Date: 2020-01-27 11:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-01-28 12:13 am (UTC)I guess so. But then I'd be leaving you too. And I love the mural. And -- [HUFF.] I don't have it in me to watch him be sad just to stick to something... [Shrug!!]
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Date: 2020-01-28 10:39 pm (UTC)You're not leaving me, Rose, no matter what you do. I'll still be your friend. It's not like you're telling me to fork off and diving into the sun. And I'm pretty sure that Doctor Current Roommate feels the same way.
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Date: 2020-01-29 05:20 pm (UTC)[And then she laughed in spite of herself.]
Okay, yeah, point taken. [And just like that she was reassured. That easy!]
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Date: 2020-02-03 10:10 pm (UTC)Good. Make sure you keep it now that you took it, okay?